I'm immensely saddened at the complete and utter fail pointed out to me this morning, both regarding YouTube channels that have since been deleted, and posts on the Gays of Daytime
message board, a place I once enjoyed frequenting but have not set a foot on in more than half a year, due to the direction it has taken since.
I'm saddened that an entire group of people is apparently incapable of believing us when we said that EKP were taking a temporary break, that the timing for this was ideal since the plots we follow will be severely backburnered for a while. I'm saddened that that group of people seems incapable of appreciating that we've done everything in our power to time this vacation ideally, to stop at a point that was a perfect intermediate happy ending, to promise that we would be back in time for plots to pick back up again and that we would cover episodes retroactively.
I'm saddened that not even a WEEK into said vacation (the first in nearly two years, the very first time that we have not supplied subtitled AWZ clips daily
), people apparently felt the need to shoulder in and try to take over, without so much as a by your leave. Honestly, I'm not sure how Lil and I would have reacted had we been approached about it - as we've stated time and again, the show has entered a period of non-central DeRo plots, so chances are we would have shrugged and said "go for it", if people who simply couldn't wait to have subs supplied for Roman eating Fluff and Deniz playing beach volleyball for Oliver & Celine's goodbye party couldn't handle just simply watching that on the RTLnow site.
The point is, we weren't
approached about it, so the question is moot.
I'm saddened that people who dare to stick up for us on the above-mentioned platforms, people who have expressed themselves in rational and sensible ways, are suffering the consequences in the form of random suspensions and abuse from people who clearly haven't spent two seconds to think about the truths spoken by the commenters they just shut down.
I'm saddened that because Lil and I dare to feel upset (and worse, voice our disappointment) over others trying to take over a mere week
after we have announced a vacation (do I need to repeat, a VACATION, not an end or a permanent hiatus), we are bitched out and vilified and threatened.
I'm saddened that because of a handful of individuals' petty notions of entitlement, EKP is in fact ONCE AGAIN facing severe threats of being shut down.
However, I can't even say that I'm as devastated about facing that threat right now as I once was. There's a part of me that wants to respond with equal pettiness to the small-minded fail of said individuals. There's a part of me that's almost hoping that RTL will
have enough, once and for all, of idiot fan factions having idiot wank wars and being unbelievably stupid enough to contact the network over it. I wouldn't blame them one bit. There's a part of me that's almost hoping
RTL will shut us down, so said small-minded individuals will see where that gets them. Because we *will* find a way to still share clips with the people we love, the people who have supported us from the get-go, the people who have made this project fun and amazing and sparkly and fabulous every single day. But the losers who are happy enough to reap the fruits of our labour while bitching us out behind our backs and taking every opportunity they can to make things shitty for us - well, uhm, no, we won't be supplying THEM with free entertainment, should that come to pass. Have fun scrambling by on sub-quality vids and sub-quality translations until you get shut down yourselves, and maybe THEN you'll have a moment to spare to think about fandom etiquette and common decency.
I am saddened, above all else, that most of the people who'll get to see this are people it doesn't even concern. My apologies, friends-list. But this is my personal journal, the one place where I feel any need to voice my opinion.
So. I'm determined, come hell or high water, to stay away from all things wank and otherwise unsparkly for the duration of this holiday. Lil and I took off time to recuperate, to recharge our batteries, to deal with the massive piles of RL stuff that we've been putting off and off and off over the past months. I do not intend to spend my time off on wank raised over the fact that we dared to take time off. That's kind of counter-productive. If petty idiots who don't have two braincells to rub together feel the need to endanger this entire fandom by dragging RTL into it and getting every
AWZ-related fandom project shut down (and believe me, that prospect is NOT far off), including ours, so be it. I'm not going to live in fear, and I'm not going to curb my opinions or personality for worry of pissing off small-minded entitlement twits. Lil, Shelly and I have run EKP for two years; we've had responses that we never dared dream of, made friendships that we never imagined, shared tears and laughter and silliness with people too lovely to be real, all on the basis of this storyline on this show we love. Some ignorant stranger who doesn't understand the first thing about that can get this channel shut down, sure, but they can't undo or stop the things that have grown out of it.
And that's that. I'm off. If I come back to a deleted channel and a fandom howling in agony, I'll deal with that when I'm good and sodding well ready for it. Until then, fuck you, wank, and BIG HUGS to you, sparkle. Each of you know who you are.
...and believe me, it is the ONLY thing I'm going to say on this matter (and I'm not going to bother putting it behind a cut either):